Monthly Archives: May 2020

Derail your own train.

Posted on May 31, 2020 by tec

No more hiding. I can’t afford it. It costs too much.

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Yesterday was so amazing. And today is hard. PT this morning was good. Bittersweet. I don’t have any more scheduled appointments with Eliott and I don’t know if I will or not. Gotta see what my doc says about next … Continue reading →

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I’m marching on to the beat I drum.

Posted on May 18, 2020 by tec

In light of yesterday’s awesome, I bit the bullet and did day1 week1 of C25K!! Holy fuck. That was amazing and oww and amazing. I gave myself an extra two minutes of walk time at the halfway point. I was … Continue reading →

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Don’t let it go to waste.

Posted on May 17, 2020 by tec

I wanted to get out and run all weekend. But I didn’t. I was kind of afraid. All last week I walked the neighborhood with S. And I started running being I was brave for S, who was self-conscious to … Continue reading →

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Onto the next.

Posted on May 14, 2020 by tec

I FUCKING DID IT!!! One full minute of running!! Holy fuck that was amazing!

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The resolute urgency of now.

Posted on May 14, 2020 by tec

I am a woman who eats her first meal and then focuses her energy on other endeavors. I am a woman who is fulfilled by productive action. I am a woman who acknowledges that some moments are hard but also … Continue reading →

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Strong as the oceans and I couldn’t explain why.

Posted on May 13, 2020 by tec

Every now and again I wish I didn’t have the memory I do. I wish I wasn’t so adept with numbers and dates. Wish old pictures weren’t so clear. Today marks ten years since that ridiculous night. Ten years since … Continue reading →

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The fire beneath my feet is burning bright.

Posted on May 10, 2020 by tec

A couple nights ago I shared with Chris my ribcage. Years ago (2014) I weighed much less and my ribcage was a great source of pride. I had worked hard for that weight loss. I had worked hard to overcome … Continue reading →

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Looking for my door key.

Posted on May 9, 2020 by tec

It suddenly just got really hard. Yesterday and today and the upcoming week and May have been on my radar, but I’ve been okay. I’ve navigated, knowing these are usually hard days for me, but it hasn’t been hard. It … Continue reading →

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Pick up the flashpoint.

Posted on May 9, 2020 by tec

I felt so much clearer after I wrote on Thursday. It was almost alarming how quickly I felt clear again. I called the tax guy and made an appt for the following day and by 1:30pm yesterday, our taxes were … Continue reading →

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