Monthly Archives: February 2021

Down to the ground.

Chris and I have been trying to get the boys to bed earlier. Over the past few months it had been later and later, until they were both going to sleep after 10. The littlest would then wake up at … Continue reading

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How quick the sun can drop away.

Addictions are so…smarmy. I mean, sometimes it is so fucking easy. It’s over off the periphery. I’m not thinking about it at all or just barely. I can even note to myself “it hasn’t been hard.” And then BAM! out … Continue reading

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Lighting up the dark.

Checking in. Busy fucking day. So many appointments. It was almost nonstop driving. Yet there was something really great about it. Purpose. I liked it. I handled it and none of it was hard. Showing up felt good. Like breathing. … Continue reading

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The wolves came and went and we’re still standing.

Today I worked my program in a way I’m really proud of. I not only remembered, but I articulated, the importance of staying my path. That I’m right where I’m supposed to be, even if it’s hard. I’m learning the … Continue reading

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Out of my cage.

I keep thinking about the things we’re taught that we don’t even know we were taught. That we didn’t even realized we learned. I mean, it was just today that I came to see the extent to which I put … Continue reading

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From up above and down below.

As the weekend comes to a close, and I suddenly have two healthy eating days behind me, I can’t help but just fucking bask in the gratitude. I don’t have to worry about this week or even tomorrow. I have … Continue reading

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Take these broken wings and learn to fly.

Good morning eating disorder. You can come along with me today. But you cannot drive. You cannot dj the radio. You cannot give directions. Stay with me. Be with me. You are not alone. Make no mistake about it tho, … Continue reading

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