Over the weekend, I let bedtime routine slip some. Morning was the same, although actually he woke up before me today.
Tonight was business as usual and we were lights out by 8:30ish. He was out by 8:59. It was really validating to realize our routine is so solid that we can stray from it a bit and it doesn’t knock anyone on their ass.
Score.
The middlest was at his dad’s for three days and tonight he was in bed, lights out only 15 minutes later than planned.
Score times two.
Tonight I felt so on top of everything. I made dinner and cleaned the kitchen and did laundry and played bingo/memory with the littlest. I hooked the middlest up with an amazing fort to sleep in. (And he was impressed! Which always feels like an impossible feat.) And Chris and I sparked connection and made out in the kitchen.
It all happened with such ease. That’s my favorite part.
A little after 9, I was thinking about warming up a chocolate chip cookie in the toaster oven. I did it this afternoon and it was divine. Then there was a voice checking in with me. “Do you need it?”
Now, this is a trick question. It’s a “keep me safe” question. If the answer is yes, I’m deprived of something non-food and I’m using the food to replace it. It’s an automatic no go. If the answer’s no, then there’s no reason to have it anyway. Another no go.
My brain doesn’t entertain a yes tonight. Resigned, it replies “no……” The answer solidifies the decision and I never have to waver. I win.
Score times three.