Category Archives: 2021

A lot of talk about a lot of things.

It’s beautiful out today. Perfect spring day. I mean, I could maybe use ten more degrees. I won’t be the one to complain about that. Hell, I cleaned up dog poop earlier, and was happy just to feel the grass’s … Continue reading

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If you could only see.

My sweet girl got me a present. I feel so loved.

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One more minute.

Today I felt the weight of my eating disorder. Terrible pun not intended. It just felt so present today. And I felt so…absent. Looking back on the day–the last few days–I’m suddenly very aware that my period is due and … Continue reading

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The silver leaves of ailing trees.

Over the weekend, I let bedtime routine slip some. Morning was the same, although actually he woke up before me today. Tonight was business as usual and we were lights out by 8:30ish. He was out by 8:59. It was … Continue reading

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Wait another second.

I could feel it all bubbling over. So I moved myself to the dark bathroom and listened to AWOLNATION’s Sail really fucking loud. And then Stonewall by Life on Eris. And now it’s slightly better. I made it safer for … Continue reading

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Leave it to the breeze.

Good evening, sweet quiet place. Today has been quite the adventure, huh? Up at 7am. Got to hang out with the oldest and the youngest this morning. A grocery trip so my boy could see his special friend, Cindy. The … Continue reading

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Get closer and closer.

Last night I clicked the button that allows this site to be live. It was hilariously anticlimactic. I mean, it was awesome. I don’t mean to downplay it. But also, the site immediately let me know I could undo it … Continue reading

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Down to the ground.

Chris and I have been trying to get the boys to bed earlier. Over the past few months it had been later and later, until they were both going to sleep after 10. The littlest would then wake up at … Continue reading

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How quick the sun can drop away.

Addictions are so…smarmy. I mean, sometimes it is so fucking easy. It’s over off the periphery. I’m not thinking about it at all or just barely. I can even note to myself “it hasn’t been hard.” And then BAM! out … Continue reading

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Lighting up the dark.

Checking in. Busy fucking day. So many appointments. It was almost nonstop driving. Yet there was something really great about it. Purpose. I liked it. I handled it and none of it was hard. Showing up felt good. Like breathing. … Continue reading

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