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One more minute.

Today I felt the weight of my eating disorder. Terrible pun not intended. It just felt so present today. And I felt so…absent. Looking back on the day–the last few days–I’m suddenly very aware that my period is due and … Continue reading

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The silver leaves of ailing trees.

Over the weekend, I let bedtime routine slip some. Morning was the same, although actually he woke up before me today. Tonight was business as usual and we were lights out by 8:30ish. He was out by 8:59. It was … Continue reading

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Wait another second.

I could feel it all bubbling over. So I moved myself to the dark bathroom and listened to AWOLNATION’s Sail really fucking loud. And then Stonewall by Life on Eris. And now it’s slightly better. I made it safer for … Continue reading

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Down to the ground.

Chris and I have been trying to get the boys to bed earlier. Over the past few months it had been later and later, until they were both going to sleep after 10. The littlest would then wake up at … Continue reading

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Meet me where the lights dim.

I have the best girl. Today she was so cuddly. And sweet. And gosh, I just enjoyed the hell out of every second of that. She came up behind me this evening and wrapped herself around my shoulders. Tonight we … Continue reading

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Step down from this.

I’m stomping. Oh my lord, I’m stomping. But I’m doing the damn thing too. Damnit. I’ve teetered all week on what I want my last 30 day food exemption to be for the next 90 challenge.  Last month I teetered … Continue reading

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Anything but empty.

I let the universe take care of me today. I let the people who love me turn my day around. After I posted earlier, I went outside with the boys, but it wasn’t enough. My body needed to move. My … Continue reading

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The dandelion sun scorching.

I’m momentarily coming to the end of my mental rope with friends not showing up for me. I’m sympathetic to the fact that people are going through things. And also I need some connection and I’m reaching out and they’re … Continue reading

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Way too up to back down.

I RAN FOR TWO MINUTES!!!!!! Holy moly! I freaking basked in it. I then made the slight mistake of looking up how long in distance that two minutes was. A bit shy of .2 miles. I don’t know why suddenly … Continue reading

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Dream a little dream of me.

I stayed up all night accidentally and now, suddenly, the sky is light and the birds are chirping away and it’s 4:57. My numbers. I never got tired. Even now I’m not so tired. What a weird night. And a … Continue reading

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