Just like you said it would be.

I didn’t eat the chocolate today.
I *wanted* to eat the chocolate today.

Well.
A part of me wanted to eat the chocolate.

I sat with it instead.
I reminded myself it wouldn’t offset any of the feelings or reasons I wanted it in the first place.
I waited with it until it passed onto something else.

Not hoping it would pass.
Not with expectation.
Simply as company.

A couple times I made the decision and got distracted for a moment and then forgot I had made the decision and felt the pull again and then it was required I make the decision again.
In the past I would have developed decision fatigue.
Today I let each time wash anew and didn’t tally them up as weight.

Each time I start to wonder if I’ve any traction at all….
The universe throws me some slack and nips that wonder in the bud.

Patience and grace and perspective and gratitude.
Over and over and over and over.

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