Tag Archives: eating disorder

Breathe me back to life.

Posted on June 19, 2021 by tec

Pain triggers me to want to eat. It’s so innate and so primal, that I didn’t even want to come here to write about it because the thought of not getting to eat while I’m in this much pain is … Continue reading →

Posted in 2021 | Tagged al-anon, as often as possible, conscious contact, eating disorder, I've decided to not, my higher power is bigger than my eating disorder when I can get out of the way, pain, practical application, self talk, triggers | Leave a comment

Hey little girl.

Posted on June 1, 2021 by tec

It’s on my mind today to eat. At breakfast I ate some on my regular food, but not all. Then I mindlessly ate some corn chips with the middlest while watching Arrested Development. I wasn’t full at the time, but … Continue reading →

Posted in 2021, Uncategorized | Tagged as often as possible, binge eating disorder, eating disorder, enough, head and body dichotomy, owning the wins, recovery, showing up, the next right step | Leave a comment

One more minute.

Posted on March 8, 2021 by tec

Today I felt the weight of my eating disorder. Terrible pun not intended. It just felt so present today. And I felt so…absent. Looking back on the day–the last few days–I’m suddenly very aware that my period is due and … Continue reading →

Posted in 2021, Uncategorized | Tagged driving around, eating disorder, eating disorder recovery, higher power, holding space, music, my husband told me to stay out as long as I wanted, owning the wins, retail therapy, showing up | Leave a comment

From up above and down below.

Posted on February 21, 2021 by tec

As the weekend comes to a close, and I suddenly have two healthy eating days behind me, I can’t help but just fucking bask in the gratitude. I don’t have to worry about this week or even tomorrow. I have … Continue reading →

Posted in 2021 | Tagged AA, addiction, al-anon, eating disorder, eating disorder recovery, hope, I can't; he can; I'll let him, insanity, unmanageable, where my feet are, working the steps | Leave a comment

Take these broken wings and learn to fly.

Posted on February 21, 2021 by tec

Good morning eating disorder. You can come along with me today. But you cannot drive. You cannot dj the radio. You cannot give directions. Stay with me. Be with me. You are not alone. Make no mistake about it tho, … Continue reading →

Posted in 2021 | Tagged beginnings, eating disorder, Elizabeth Gilbert, hello it's me again, just in this moment, one day at a time, practical application | Leave a comment

Step down from this.

Posted on June 5, 2020 by tec

I’m stomping. Oh my lord, I’m stomping. But I’m doing the damn thing too. Damnit. I’ve teetered all week on what I want my last 30 day food exemption to be for the next 90 challenge. Last month I teetered … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged binge eating disorder, breaking the cycle, eating disorder, eating disorder recovery, food, food addiction, food as comfort, making the better choice, next90 challenge, progress, recovery, sitting in the uncomfortable, snacks, stomp stomp stomp, the next right step | Leave a comment

It took some time to survive you.

Posted on May 7, 2020 by tec

I’ve been disconnecting my why and my who from my present the past few days. I’m sure there’s a reason. I’m sure that reason is important. But I haven’t tread there yet. I haven’t come here to pick it apart. … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged communication, eating disorder, eating disorder recovery, food as comfort, food don't fix, future me, marriage, my who, my why, navigating, one foot in front of the other, Rachel Hollis, relationships, self awareness, self care, stress, the hard things, writing, writing as therapy | Leave a comment

Faster than my words.

Posted on March 23, 2020 by tec

I want to eat. I’m not going to. But I want to.

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged eating disorder, eating window, honesty, navigating, recovery | Leave a comment

Sentiments, like shadows, grow.

Posted on January 13, 2020 by tec

I have a compulsion this morning to weigh myself. I know it’s just that–a compulsion. I know the rational. It doesn’t negate the irrational. Logically I know that, whatever the number on the scale, it isn’t indicative of my health … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged auchduh, be, binge eating disorder, body dysmorphia, compulsive thoughts, eating disorder, eating disorder recovery, honoring my body, making the choice, morning routines, non-scale victory, ocd, progress, putting in the work, self care, self talk, self worth, weight loss | Leave a comment

Thinking of ways to get back home.

Posted on October 30, 2019 by tec

Fuck. My eating disorder is fucking loud today. I had started my day excited that it felt like a new start of healthiness and healing. I made Brussels sprouts even! Oh, but did my body (mind?) have other plans! This … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged [ . . . ], addiction, al-anon, binge eating disorder, blanket fort, dude-shut up--I'm navigating, eating disorder, finding my way, food, fucking empaths, I should start taking the cbd a little earlier..., I wrote a lot of expletives, it looks messy and that's okay, letting your thing be your thing, marriage, mental health, practice what I preach | Leave a comment

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