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The fire beneath my feet is burning bright.

A couple nights ago I shared with Chris my ribcage. Years ago (2014) I weighed much less and my ribcage was a great source of pride. I had worked hard for that weight loss. I had worked hard to overcome … Continue reading

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It took some time to survive you.

I’ve been disconnecting my why and my who from my present the past few days. I’m sure there’s a reason. I’m sure that reason is important. But I haven’t tread there yet. I haven’t come here to pick it apart. … Continue reading

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I know what I know if you know what I mean.

Future me shared in confidence today. This eating disorder can appear at any time–nature of the disease. When things are really blah or really awesome. Any time it wants. Future me stays proactive. So I stay proactive. Today the boys … Continue reading

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Close your eyes and think of me.

Yesterday I suddenly became so freaking excited about all the things I’ve got going on–the growth mindset and decluttering (which is starting to feel really tangible again) and my very own website that I’m diligently working to launch. And fast … Continue reading

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Close your eyes and think of me.

Yesterday I suddenly became so freaking excited about all the things I’ve got going on–the growth mindset and decluttering (which is starting to feel really tangible again) and my very own website that I’m diligently working to launch. And fast … Continue reading

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Sentiments, like shadows, grow.

I have a compulsion this morning to weigh myself. I know it’s just that–a compulsion. I know the rational. It doesn’t negate the irrational. Logically I know that, whatever the number on the scale, it isn’t indicative of my health … Continue reading

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A drop in the ocean.

I never understand how my dog gets herself so bent in half. She always falls asleep so deeply like this tho, usually right at my feet. It’s been in the back of my mind for a couple months now that … Continue reading

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I don’t want to wait.

I had this moment today where I realized I had had three constructively successful days in a row. And I wanted to take a picture of the meal I was making, but then I got self-conscious about my vegetables and … Continue reading

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And made my way back home.

After a season of internal stagnation and some days flat out destructive ruin, I think I’m ready to commit to myself again. I’m ready to start growing the things.

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May 27th PM2

In my plans for following my body and not my mind (they’ll find symbiosis in time), I have decided the nicest (read: most efficient) thing to do is stop eating foods that make my body feel terrible. Not classes of … Continue reading

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