Tag Archives: marriage

The sun broke free of the clouds.

Posted on October 16, 2019 by tec

A letter to my husband: He once told you that I feel trapped. And I feel like it’s the biggest disservice he ever did us. There was never ever going to be me convincing you otherwise because his word was … Continue reading →

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Some kind of light at the end.

Posted on October 14, 2019 by tec

I’m not going to eat tonight. I’m so tired from making decisions I shouldn’t have been making. I’m so exhausted I could cry. I’m so exhausted I didn’t realize I was already crying. I don’t think I’ll ever be able … Continue reading →

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Anything but empty.

Posted on October 11, 2019 by tec

Not much is harder than watching someone you love have the hardest week of their life. He is hurting so much. The medication was tearing him apart while he was on it, but now that he’s stopped taking it, it’s … Continue reading →

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We laughed into the sky.

Posted on October 9, 2019 by tec

I have this quiet philosophy. I believe that there are infinite parallel lives where a moment branched and a whole other life is played out differently elsewhere. I don’t much entertain thoughts of most of these paths. Rarely do I … Continue reading →

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I knew I loved you then.

Posted on July 26, 2019 by tec

I’m lying here next to my husband and it’s almost 2am. In the trick of the dim light, he looks like someone I only half recognize. Which is an interesting metaphor for everything else. My brain can’t wrap around the … Continue reading →

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Just wait and see.

Posted on July 25, 2019 by tec

I know I’m in “get ready for vacation” mode, and that’s probably all it is, but the joy of purging and cleaning and being productive toward the goals I’ve been working toward for months has turned to mist before my … Continue reading →

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