Tag Archives: navigating the past

I would let the whole thing keep.

Oh it feels like coming home. I hadn’t posted in so long. And then my phone died and I’ve been borrowing a phone and none of my stuff is on it, including easy access to this site. Tonight my fingers … Continue reading

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Strong as the oceans and I couldn’t explain why.

Every now and again I wish I didn’t have the memory I do. I wish I wasn’t so adept with numbers and dates. Wish old pictures weren’t so clear. Today marks ten years since that ridiculous night. Ten years since … Continue reading

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The fire beneath my feet is burning bright.

A couple nights ago I shared with Chris my ribcage. Years ago (2014) I weighed much less and my ribcage was a great source of pride. I had worked hard for that weight loss. I had worked hard to overcome … Continue reading

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Looking for my door key.

It suddenly just got really hard. Yesterday and today and the upcoming week and May have been on my radar, but I’ve been okay. I’ve navigated, knowing these are usually hard days for me, but it hasn’t been hard. It … Continue reading

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It may be quite simple.

What a strange and hard and beautiful weekend. Friday was a long day after a long week. Saturday was me trying to learn to navigate in the face of all the everything….while also doing a 12 week goal challenge, maintaining … Continue reading

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Why are you running away?

Part of my sponsee homework this week was to flesh out my higher power a bit more. Not necessarily to share with Beth, but to have a more tangible and articulated foundation for myself. Chris and I had this two … Continue reading

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Tap on my window; knock on my door.

This hilarious thing happened. Where I was listening to the Rise Together podcast and Rachel and Dave were fucking geeking out about their enneagrams and I wanted in on it, despite having previously been vehemently (read: quietly) against taking the … Continue reading

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Twenty twenty twenty-four hours ago.

There is a chill today. And an itch. And a restlessness. Welcome to the hard days of fall. I do love fall–but the sunshine days. The cloudy, dreary days are heavier than I’m prepared for. I saw Brian yesterday. That … Continue reading

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