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The resolute urgency of now.
I am a woman who eats her first meal and then focuses her energy on other endeavors. I am a woman who is fulfilled by productive action. I am a woman who acknowledges that some moments are hard but also … Continue reading
Faster than my words.
I want to eat. I’m not going to. But I want to.
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Tagged eating disorder, eating window, honesty, navigating, recovery
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Why are you running away?
Part of my sponsee homework this week was to flesh out my higher power a bit more. Not necessarily to share with Beth, but to have a more tangible and articulated foundation for myself. Chris and I had this two … Continue reading
Yesterday a child came out to wonder.
It feels like this was specifically written for me. It is words I haven’t been able to find for myself. It’s not answers. But it’s something. It’s a spark. I don’t yet have a real grasp on…who I am. I … Continue reading
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Tagged al-anon, all the hard things, all the work, Allie Casazza, Brene Brown, change, comparison is the thief of joy, faith, get off the damn ladder, I am scared, Kendra Hennessy, Liz Gilbert, my fear can come along for the ride but she's gotta sit in the back, philosophy, practice, progress, purpose, quieting the what ifs, rachel martin, recovery, risk for a butterfly., self love, self worth, shame, the strong vulnerable women who lead the way, vulnerability
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Damn sure better than rain.
I went to my first Al-Anon meeting. I wasn’t nervous at all when I left for the meeting. When I got there and sat down I was suddenly doing all my nervous things. People were inviting and warm, but also … Continue reading
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Tagged AA, al-anon, alcoholism, anxiety, binge eating disorder, community, coping mechanisms, dreams and aspirations, faith, family, friends, hope, how it works, it's time, marriage, mental illness, miscarriage, OA, recovery, shine your light where you can, support, the good things we do for ourselves that we didn't even know we needed
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Some kind of light at the end.
I’m not going to eat tonight. I’m so tired from making decisions I shouldn’t have been making. I’m so exhausted I could cry. I’m so exhausted I didn’t realize I was already crying. I don’t think I’ll ever be able … Continue reading
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Tagged addiction, alt-til my lungs give out, decision making juice, detox, eating disorder, faith, I couldn't decide on the lyric; still not sure I chose right, marriage, my little girl doesn't have any idea she's been the icing, recovery, sleep, stress, there you are
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Defending his light.
I woke up. And he’s still not here.
Don’t complicate it.
I love this blog. I often think of it ridiculously fondly and I’m just so glad it exists. I also love my daughter’s boyfriend. He feels like a genuinely nice boy. More on that when I’m better slept. It’s 11pm … Continue reading
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Tagged addiction, decision making juice, doing the hard thing, family, husband, lack of sleep, medication, recovery, seizure disorder
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