Tag Archives: relationships

Don’t fuss; don’t fight.

It’s been so long. I don’t even know what I’m doing back here. It was just….muscle memory. To come back. To write. To pour my soul on the page and pray the trauma releases from my body. I’m so tired. … Continue reading

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Meet me where the lights dim.

I have the best girl. Today she was so cuddly. And sweet. And gosh, I just enjoyed the hell out of every second of that. She came up behind me this evening and wrapped herself around my shoulders. Tonight we … Continue reading

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Anything but empty.

I let the universe take care of me today. I let the people who love me turn my day around. After I posted earlier, I went outside with the boys, but it wasn’t enough. My body needed to move. My … Continue reading

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Dream a little dream of me.

I stayed up all night accidentally and now, suddenly, the sky is light and the birds are chirping away and it’s 4:57. My numbers. I never got tired. Even now I’m not so tired. What a weird night. And a … Continue reading

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Don’t let it go to waste.

I wanted to get out and run all weekend. But I didn’t. I was kind of afraid. All last week I walked the neighborhood with S. And I started running being I was brave for S, who was self-conscious to … Continue reading

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Strong as the oceans and I couldn’t explain why.

Every now and again I wish I didn’t have the memory I do. I wish I wasn’t so adept with numbers and dates. Wish old pictures weren’t so clear. Today marks ten years since that ridiculous night. Ten years since … Continue reading

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Looking for my door key.

It suddenly just got really hard. Yesterday and today and the upcoming week and May have been on my radar, but I’ve been okay. I’ve navigated, knowing these are usually hard days for me, but it hasn’t been hard. It … Continue reading

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Pick up the flashpoint.

I felt so much clearer after I wrote on Thursday. It was almost alarming how quickly I felt clear again. I called the tax guy and made an appt for the following day and by 1:30pm yesterday, our taxes were … Continue reading

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It took some time to survive you.

I’ve been disconnecting my why and my who from my present the past few days. I’m sure there’s a reason. I’m sure that reason is important. But I haven’t tread there yet. I haven’t come here to pick it apart. … Continue reading

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Like the ceiling can’t hold us.

Before I even make my coffee this morning, I want to share what my life affords me. I woke up this morning to this. There are clean dishes in the drain board from 24 hours ago. There’s crap on the … Continue reading

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